04 March 2009
Interesting or just random?
I was going through an online shopping site the other day, and stumbled across an interesting item for sale. It is a portable survival kit. With the economy being what it is, global tensions rising, and 12/21/2012 not too far away, I figured I would see what it contained.
Labels: observation, random
27 February 2009
I think...
I think I am making a conscious decision to stay single. I have come to realize, people are just too damaged and fucked up for me to even bother dealing with. They may not see their actions as escapism, but truly, they are. You know who you are! Oh, and learn how to properly communicate. I could have better conversations with far more content, excitement, and detail with Helen Keller!
Is it bad I am almost looking FORWARD to December 21, 2012, being the end of days?
Is it bad I am almost looking FORWARD to December 21, 2012, being the end of days?
Labels: observation, random, rant
15 February 2009
Random Rambling
You should be used to such things from me by now...
Anywho, I have learned that my new approach to how I view certain aspects of the world is benefiting me somewhat well.
I have stopped investing time and energy into non-worthwhile endeavours, choosing instead to allocate my energies into projects with a definite benefit to me. This is taking shape in a few areas of life, including interpersonal relationships. No longer am I investing undue effort to people to whom there is no real future of lasting, meaningful interaction. (No, I am not talking to YOU, and YOU know who YOU are that I am NOT referring to! LOL) As stated in a recent post, fair weather friends are no longer being tolerated, so get to steppin!
Well, on that note, I am off to watch The Gay Bed & Breakfast of Terror.
Anywho, I have learned that my new approach to how I view certain aspects of the world is benefiting me somewhat well.
I have stopped investing time and energy into non-worthwhile endeavours, choosing instead to allocate my energies into projects with a definite benefit to me. This is taking shape in a few areas of life, including interpersonal relationships. No longer am I investing undue effort to people to whom there is no real future of lasting, meaningful interaction. (No, I am not talking to YOU, and YOU know who YOU are that I am NOT referring to! LOL) As stated in a recent post, fair weather friends are no longer being tolerated, so get to steppin!
Well, on that note, I am off to watch The Gay Bed & Breakfast of Terror.
31 January 2009
Is it just me? Am I the only one?
Quick question...
Am I the only person who either after a relationship ends looks at the person with whom they have been replaced, or even during a relationship looks at those they have replaced and thinks..
"What the hell is wrong with me?!?" or "Am I that ugly/irresponsible/pathetic/adjective of choice?"
I have noticed I do this often, and have for quite some time. I know we all have different tastes and qualities we look for, but damn! I look at some of the people that exes have dated and think, if that is their typical type, I must be REALLY sad and ugly. Occasionally though it goes from a woe is me to an ego moment of "Hell, I was the best thing they ever had!"
But on either side of it. Is it just me?
Am I the only person who either after a relationship ends looks at the person with whom they have been replaced, or even during a relationship looks at those they have replaced and thinks..
"What the hell is wrong with me?!?" or "Am I that ugly/irresponsible/pathetic/adjective of choice?"
I have noticed I do this often, and have for quite some time. I know we all have different tastes and qualities we look for, but damn! I look at some of the people that exes have dated and think, if that is their typical type, I must be REALLY sad and ugly. Occasionally though it goes from a woe is me to an ego moment of "Hell, I was the best thing they ever had!"
But on either side of it. Is it just me?
Labels: observation, random
30 January 2009
Quick comment
- Fair weather friends are worthless.
- Karma's a bitch.
- You reap what you sow.
Labels: random
03 January 2009
Madonna - Voices
These lyrics just really speak to me right now. I can completely relate!
First you say you love me
Then you wanna leave me
Then you say you're sorry
You play the game so well
I bought your illusion
You're the greatest salesman
How could I refuse you
When you sold it to yourself
Can anyone guess to whom I am referring?
First you say you love me
Then you wanna leave me
Then you say you're sorry
You play the game so well
I bought your illusion
You're the greatest salesman
How could I refuse you
When you sold it to yourself
Can anyone guess to whom I am referring?
Labels: random
22 December 2008
Something I Don't Often Do
This post is going to be a little bit out of the ordinary for me. Usually I keep certain things a bit closer than a post, but as I have been "preaching" to another friend lately, sometimes releasing issues out into the blogosphere can be truly therapeutic. A catharctic release, if you will.
The past several weeks, since very early November, have been extremely difficult for me on a personal level. I lost a very special and important relationship early in november. As some of you know, I had been dating Michael (sexykool1) for a while, and back in August he had proposed to me. We were supposed to be getting married this week, perhaps why events are hitting me at this time. Well, in November he showed up one Saturday morning, and without warning dropped a bombshell on me, that he was ending the relationship. Originally it was because he thought I was taking him away from God, he wanted to focus more on his career, but he didn't want to date other people, or have "relations" with other people. Interestingly, within an hour of his "revelation" he had personal ads up around the net. A few weeks go by, and it is Thanksgiving. The day after he calls me, and then e-mails me:
From:"Michael"
Sent:Fri. 28.11.08 6.47 pm
To:"Randy "
Subj:Re: Nice to hear from you too
Its finally hitting me, and hard :( funny I'm putting up the tree listening to music. I thought of you and this song one of my favorite by shirley merdock comes on now I'm balling. I'm so so so very sorry baby
This then led to a few weeks of back and forth of random messages from him such as an early morning text message that he just woke up thinking of me, and had to tell me he loved me. Finally, it led to a four hour late night call where he expressed that he wanted to get back together, to work things out, and to fulfill everything we had planned, including getting married. I at the time expressed to him my concerns with his changeability, which he said he understood, and wanted to prove his sincerity to me. He went so far as to changing his online profiles to state he had someone good in his life, and was no longer looking for anything more than friends.
However, within 24 hours, his position once again changed, and he was back online, per his own profile, looking for any type of hook up he could find.
Needless to say, I know that I am not, nor was I ever the problem. He is the shining example of the "Grass is Greener" mentioned in a post a few weeks ago. I also know that I have neither the time nor the inclination to deal with such nonsense, especially from a 40 year old man.
What makes it even more sad is the fact that I have dealt with people with far more deep-seated issues of an emotional nature, including substance abuse issues, who have been more sincere, more caring, and less, hell to be blunt, less fucked up than this one individual. Do I have qualms about using his real name? Hell no! If he can be out on the net peddling himself, then I can quite unabashedly call it out.
Right now, I am sleepy, but will continue this post soon! He isn't the only example of this behaviour recently encountered.
The past several weeks, since very early November, have been extremely difficult for me on a personal level. I lost a very special and important relationship early in november. As some of you know, I had been dating Michael (sexykool1) for a while, and back in August he had proposed to me. We were supposed to be getting married this week, perhaps why events are hitting me at this time. Well, in November he showed up one Saturday morning, and without warning dropped a bombshell on me, that he was ending the relationship. Originally it was because he thought I was taking him away from God, he wanted to focus more on his career, but he didn't want to date other people, or have "relations" with other people. Interestingly, within an hour of his "revelation" he had personal ads up around the net. A few weeks go by, and it is Thanksgiving. The day after he calls me, and then e-mails me:
From:"Michael"
Sent:Fri. 28.11.08 6.47 pm
To:"Randy "
Subj:Re: Nice to hear from you too
Its finally hitting me, and hard :( funny I'm putting up the tree listening to music. I thought of you and this song one of my favorite by shirley merdock comes on now I'm balling. I'm so so so very sorry baby
This then led to a few weeks of back and forth of random messages from him such as an early morning text message that he just woke up thinking of me, and had to tell me he loved me. Finally, it led to a four hour late night call where he expressed that he wanted to get back together, to work things out, and to fulfill everything we had planned, including getting married. I at the time expressed to him my concerns with his changeability, which he said he understood, and wanted to prove his sincerity to me. He went so far as to changing his online profiles to state he had someone good in his life, and was no longer looking for anything more than friends.
However, within 24 hours, his position once again changed, and he was back online, per his own profile, looking for any type of hook up he could find.
Needless to say, I know that I am not, nor was I ever the problem. He is the shining example of the "Grass is Greener" mentioned in a post a few weeks ago. I also know that I have neither the time nor the inclination to deal with such nonsense, especially from a 40 year old man.
What makes it even more sad is the fact that I have dealt with people with far more deep-seated issues of an emotional nature, including substance abuse issues, who have been more sincere, more caring, and less, hell to be blunt, less fucked up than this one individual. Do I have qualms about using his real name? Hell no! If he can be out on the net peddling himself, then I can quite unabashedly call it out.
Right now, I am sleepy, but will continue this post soon! He isn't the only example of this behaviour recently encountered.
15 December 2008
Good Bye XM
Well, that was painful. I just had to cancel my XM radio, because their "new" lineup is just absolutely DREADFUL!! Ever since they merged with Sirius they have gone down hill. I went with them originally because they had a much better lineup in contrast to the crap on Sirius. What do they do? They get rid of their good channels and replace them with the crap from Sirius.
To anyone considering the new Sirius XM or whatever they call themselves currently, don't waste the money. You can get better music for free through Yahoo.
Was there really that much demand for an ABBA channel? Really?
To anyone considering the new Sirius XM or whatever they call themselves currently, don't waste the money. You can get better music for free through Yahoo.
Was there really that much demand for an ABBA channel? Really?
12 December 2008
I don't think I could be more random if I Have you ever eaten grilled alligator?
Well, kiddos, it has been a week. One more till my return to NY for some decompression (and hopefully NOT decomposition) with my near and dear.
A lot has transpired in the past few days, seemingly without much effort on my part with even leaving my house.
I have encountered Sybil. Yes dear, you are found guilty of assholism.....
I have also encountered greatness. I am so thankful to have met you.
What's to come? Stay tuned to find out!
Ciao!
A lot has transpired in the past few days, seemingly without much effort on my part with even leaving my house.
I have encountered Sybil. Yes dear, you are found guilty of assholism.....
I have also encountered greatness. I am so thankful to have met you.
What's to come? Stay tuned to find out!
Ciao!
Labels: random
02 December 2008
OMG! The Things You Find Online!
Tell me this wasn't provided just for ME by the UNIVERSE!!
It's like they KNOW me, and my patent pending AssHole Magnet!
27 November 2008
Giving Thanks
Today is of course a day to give thanks. First and foremost, I would like to give thanks for all of the wonderful people in my life. As we all know, life can be a true rollercoaster, and without you, I would have probably gone flying off the tracks right now. I am also thankful for the new people I have met in the past few weeks. I hope our friendships will continue to grow.
I am also thankful for the experiences of life. While some may be extremely hurtful and difficult at the time, they allow growth to occur. I wouldn't be who I am today were it not for a lot of the painful experiences I have gone through.
In short, may everyone have a happy, healthy Thanksgiving. May we all not end up in a food coma!
Till next time...
Randy
25 November 2008
Yeah, it's old, so what? We tolerate lots of old things lately...
22 November 2008
Getting back to normal...sort of
Well, the past few weeks have been extremely difficult for me, but I am finally starting to see the light. I won't go into details, but there has been a rather large change in my life. Whether it is good or bad is still up in the air, but regardless, it is what it is, and I cannot change it, so I learn to adapt.
Hopefully I will get back to regularly posting. Also, a new contributor is joining the HoD family, so stay tuned...
Hopefully I will get back to regularly posting. Also, a new contributor is joining the HoD family, so stay tuned...
Labels: random
26 October 2008
Have you ever...
Have you ever just had an overwhelming urge just to be evil? For no good or discernable reason what so ever?
For some reason, that has been me the past several days. Not sure what is up with that, but I just feel like being this totally evil person.
Maybe it is Halloween creeping up on me?
For some reason, that has been me the past several days. Not sure what is up with that, but I just feel like being this totally evil person.
Maybe it is Halloween creeping up on me?
Labels: random
17 October 2008
A Very Happy Birthday!
A very happy 17th birthday to my sister, Christine!
Did you honestly think I wouldn't do a "blast from the past"? LOL
Randy
Labels: random
01 September 2008
Might I Just Say...
Ouch!!!
Vicodin is my friend, if only I could take it during the day without the fear of falling asleep at my desk!
I look like someone hit me upside the head!
Vicodin is my friend, if only I could take it during the day without the fear of falling asleep at my desk!
I look like someone hit me upside the head!
Labels: random
Happy Labour Day!
Well, for those of you who have the day off that is. I am actually labouring on Labour Day!
To make it even more fun, I don't feel well.
Holiday, huh?
To make it even more fun, I don't feel well.
Holiday, huh?
Labels: random
27 August 2008
AAAAAARRRRRGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!
21 August 2008
To Everyone Pissing Me Off This Week!
19 August 2008
Well, it was a weekend
The weekend has come and gone, and it was interesting.
Friday night we ended up going up to the North Side and hitting the Granville Anvil (don't even ask) and then Jackhammer. Might I just say, Jaegermeister is the devil! But I did kick some ass in darts! Oddly, the little Asian man mentioned in an earlier post was also at Jackhammer, this time in just a leather jock. Afterwards it was off to the gayest IHOP in the world, and home to pass out at 5:00 a.m.
Saturday saw a bright, sunny, mildly hungover day. Things did not go quite as planned thanks to a flat tire taking much longer than it should have to take care of. This also led to my sunburn...
Afterward, we did find a good grill and sushi bar called G-In, in Tinley Park. The Lovers Tray was delicious! Cold Stone Creamery provided desert on the way home :-)
Sunday was a laid-back day, with the now traditional breakfast at Blueberry Hill.
After breakfast, Reggi and his friend went to the Nature Centre, while Michael and I hit the grocery store, went home to prep for the cook out. Dinner turned out well, with steak, chicken, hot Italian sausages, roasted corn on the cob, coleslaw, tossed salad, grilled eggplant, Coronas, and Malibu and OJ's.
My weekends seem to be getting busier and busier. Is that a good thing, or a bad thing?
Friday night we ended up going up to the North Side and hitting the Granville Anvil (don't even ask) and then Jackhammer. Might I just say, Jaegermeister is the devil! But I did kick some ass in darts! Oddly, the little Asian man mentioned in an earlier post was also at Jackhammer, this time in just a leather jock. Afterwards it was off to the gayest IHOP in the world, and home to pass out at 5:00 a.m.
Saturday saw a bright, sunny, mildly hungover day. Things did not go quite as planned thanks to a flat tire taking much longer than it should have to take care of. This also led to my sunburn...
Afterward, we did find a good grill and sushi bar called G-In, in Tinley Park. The Lovers Tray was delicious! Cold Stone Creamery provided desert on the way home :-)
Sunday was a laid-back day, with the now traditional breakfast at Blueberry Hill.
After breakfast, Reggi and his friend went to the Nature Centre, while Michael and I hit the grocery store, went home to prep for the cook out. Dinner turned out well, with steak, chicken, hot Italian sausages, roasted corn on the cob, coleslaw, tossed salad, grilled eggplant, Coronas, and Malibu and OJ's.
My weekends seem to be getting busier and busier. Is that a good thing, or a bad thing?
Labels: random
