My Mind

Well, today was supposed to be the end of my work week, but I will be coming in for a few hours tomorrow. The OT will be a good thing, and I can get some things taken care of, so they won't be looming over my head on Tuesday, which will probably be a crazy day.

So far, I am doing well on the whole going vegetarian thing. It has been just about a week, and I think I can do it. I'm not sure if I will ever be able to go vegan, but at this point, who knows? If only it were this easy to quit smoking!

I'm not sure yet what Seth has in store for this weekend, so it should be interesting. It'll be nice to be outside of my normal environment (ie. home) for a few days.

Till next time....

Ok, so on a boredom moment, I decided to check out the site http://www.thedeathpsychic.com

Well, basically you enter your name, age and gender, and the site will tell you how you will meet your demise. Here was mine:

Let it be told...
A lit cigarette is dropped in your car while you're driving. While you're attempting to pick it up, you veer into oncoming traffic. You are struck by a speeding truck and are killed instantly.

Freaky shit!

Is it bad that you can barely remember your weekend, especially if you didn't have a drop of alcohol?

I know the weekend occured. I wasn't at work for a few days, but I for the life of me don't really remember doing anything. Is it possible to be so lazy you have a mental blackout?

What I do remember is having to shell out too much change this morning to the ever so nice people at Firestone (if I die in a tire blowout on the highway, reference this post!) to have all four of my tires replaced, and an alignment. Damned my car being listed as a performance car needing more expensive tires!!

Note to self: Buy more cost effective car in the future...maybe a hybrid.

Anyways, I wasn't able to get into work as planned by 7:30, so now I get to figure out how to retool my schedule for the week. I still plan on taking off Friday, as part of my four day week. I may just need to pull one or two later days than I had planned. Oh well, not like I have much of a life anyway, well, except for the time I get to spend with Seth, but as far as the workweek goes, it is work home, mix, repeat.

Well, yesterday was an enjoyable, relaxed day, but now it is back to the plantation, oops. I mean back to work LOL.

Wednesday night, Seth and I went out, had some drinks, played darts, and just hung out for a while. Yesterday we slept most of the day away, and it felt good to just do nothing at all. We finally got up around 4, went to the store to pick up what we needed to make dinner, and went back to the house.

While not very exciting, it was enjoyable, none the less :-)

The 12 hour day from HELL!!!

Today, the staff is all here, thankfully and I am only doing a 9 hour day today, with tomorrow off. YAY! And all I want to do tomorrow is sit around watching tv and eating bon bons LOL. Of course, I know that won't be the case. Seth is coming out tonight, so I guess we will just wait and see what we decide to do tomorrow, since we both have the day off.

Other than working like crazy, not a whole lot is going on.

More later.....perhaps :-)

I was told that Wellbutrin was supposed to help with quitting smoking.

Granted, I have only been on it for about 4 days, but I have actually started smoking like a chimney! It's like I want a cigarette every thirty minutes. Fortunately, I have willpower, and am not smoking at every whim, but this is insane!

I am in the first hour and a half of my 12 hour day, and thus far, I am being very productive. Let's see how long this will last LOL. I keep telling myself "On Thursday, when your ass can sleep in, you will appreciate this temporary sacrifice of an extra 4 hours a day" I may just need to sleep in though to recover from this new schedule, but I will be saving a good chunk of change by not coming in one day a week. Between gas and tolls, I should be saving $50 a month, which can go to more enjoyable uses :-)

Well, I guess I should get back to the grind. Qiana isn't in for two more hours, so I need to handle the phones. Once she gets in, I get to play computer tech, and install the new printers. Joy! Bliss! I should put these tasks on my resume, but I don't think I do them often enough to consider them resume worthy. Do you agree, or disagree? Let me know.

I will TRY to give an update throughout the day, so you may witness my decline into exhaustion and insanity...till then... LOL

I am bouncing off the damned walls today.

On my birthday, my doctor switched around my meds abit, and now I am alternating between being all sleepy, to wanting to do backflips through the office. I know it will take a little while to adjust, but this is hilarious, bordering on ridiculous LOL

My birthday itself went well, if not exactly as I had planned. At least this year my dear and nerar actually REMEMBERED my birthday! No bitterness, just stating the difference between this year, and last, you know the big 30!

I ended up, after bringing Seth home, and going to the good ole doc's, going home after hours in rush hour traffic, taking a nap, and heading over to Indiana to hang out with Alvin and Jason, and let the Crown Royal flow. We drank, smoked, and had a fabulous time, me in my tiara at all times :-) Evan gave me a really nice shout out on his webcast, so for that, I thank you from the bottom of my loving heart :-)

Seth had to work this weekend, so our communications were limited :-( But, I am looking forward to seeing him soon, and we do talk just about daily, so it's ok :-)

What do I have in store for this week?

Well, of course, being Monday night, I have to catch my weekly fix of 24. Other than that, tonight should be all about relaxation. Tomorrow will be a fun fun fun 12 hour day, with Shar being out and all, but I just keep telling myself that the insane hours now, grant me the four day work week I am growing to love :-)

I still can't believe how much laundry I still have to do! I have a lot of it washed, I just have to get off of my lazy ass, and actually get it folded and put away. I can be a bit of a procrastinator, around the house anyways. I put so much energy into my job, that sometimes there just isn't enough for the home too LOL.

Anyways, I am rambling in my quasi-manic moment, so I am going to go and find something else to go and try to burn off some of this energy.

TTYL

Thanks to Qiana!!!!! :-)

Well, tomorrow I turn 31, and all I can do is hope that the next year is a hell of a lot better than this past year has been.

Today is a cold, rainy, dreary day, and it took me close to 3 hours to get to work because of the ever lasting road work on ALL the highways that I could take to get to work, and the fact that people in the Midwest cannot drive in rain to save their lives!!!! It is absolutely maddening! I have driven faster in blizzards when I lived in the Northeast, and people here lose their damned minds over drizzle.

Back to me and my birthday. I am looking forward to it hopefully being a new beginning for me. I have a lot to do though tomorrow, so I am hoping to at least be able to enjoy part of my day. Seth is coming down tonight, and we will probably do something low key, and tomorrow, after running a myriad of errands, I am getting together with Alvin and Jason to do something, although what remains to be seen. I am tempted to try my luck, and go to the boats to see if I can win some birthday cash! :-)

Feel free to leave me a comment if you have any suggestions on what to do for my birthday :-)

Ok, so this week, I decided to start doing 4 day weeks, where I do a compressed schedule of getting my 40 hours in 4 days.

I must be insane!

Today is feeling like the longest day in the history of time itself!

Shoot me!

Though, the extra day off each week will be nice :-)

Continuing on a theme....

As I read through some other blogs yesterday, I came to the rather depressing realization that I really have a boring life. Either that or these people are REALLY good liars and story tellers.

How did I go from being the life of the party to the butt of the joke?

I don't think, personality wise, I have changed all that much since when I was in my early to mid twenties, yet I seem to have become some fossilized old remain of my former glorious self. If anything, I have lost weight, gained a better body image, yet seem to have lost my zest for life in the process.

Could all of this being brought on by my impending further journey into my 30's?

"What do you want for you birthday?"

To be quite honest, what I would truly like for my birthday is not something that can be wrapped up in ribbons and pretty paper. Nor is it a sentiment that can be encapsulated in any Hallmark moment.

What I want for my birthday is not some touchable, tangible item, nothing that can be picked up on a gift registry or wish list.

I want the free spirited, fun, care free me back. A gift only I can give to myself, but am afraid may be too far gone to retrieve from the wasteland to which I involuntarily exiled it.

Pity, party of one......Do we have a Pity, party of one?

Well, not really.

Today has been an eventful day, of which I don't feel like getting into specifics, but needless to say, my life is going to be going through some majour changes over the next several weeks, hopefully for the better.

My birthday is just a tad over a week away, and I am hoping that 31 will be better on so many levels, as compared to the near Hell 30 has been.

It has to get better, doesn't it?

At least lie to me and tell me it does...!!!...!!!

It doesn't seem possible that it was just about a year ago that I was stressing about buying the house, and now I want nothing more than to get rid of it and move back up to the Northside!

While I like the house itself, I feel so culturally isolated!!!! I miss the sounds of the city, the ability to just hop on the el when I feel like it. To get good Thai food!!!!!

But, instead of just bitching, I should also remember all that I have to be thankful for. For one, I have a wonderful man in my life, who I wouldn't trade for anything in the world. I have a roof over my head (albeit in a isolated environment), a job (not the greatest job, but a job nonetheless), great friends, and my health. Soon I will enter the 31st year of my life, and I can only hope things keep getting better.